Ugh. I’m sorry. I know I’m a pain in the ass. But you are too so whatever.

About three Wednesday’s ago, while you were napping, I decided to climb out of your window and sit on the roof. I haven’t written in months so when the thoughts came to me I hesitated a little before pulling out a notebook and scribbling this down with a blue color pencil. It was all I could find at the time but
it’s okay though ‘cause I know that blue is your favorite color.
Anyways, I scribbled this down and tore it out and folded it up and hid it up there under the lining of the ledge.. I went back up there this past week and slid my fingers under to feel if it was still there.
When I felt the paper, I couldn’t decided whether or not I was relieved or disappointed that you hadn’t found it yet…

To be honest, I don’t know what I’m doing. I just.. I want to talk about you. I want to talk about you all the time but I can’t. I mean, do you know how much shit I’d get if people found me out? They’d say all kinds of things. I know that right now you don’t feel for me what I feel for you. And that’s okay. It doesn’t change anything at all. You’re my best friend and you mean the entire world to me. Like, really. If someone told me that I had to choose one person to be stuck on an island with- it’d be you. It always is and it always will be. You’re the only person besides my family that I feel I can completely be me around. Sometimes you’re the only person period. It’s scary to think about the fact that you’re graduating this year and that you still don’t know. I haven’t completely thought this through but at the bottom of your graduation card, maybe I’ll put the link to this blog or something.. maybe.